I want to get to that point in my life where the teeter totter sits still on its fulcrum, balanced, poised, quiet. Yes, happy times, sad times will never go away — we live in duality, and the highs and lows must come by default… or as my husband the physicist once put it when I asked whether the wave structure of energy shows how life is structured,”Is this a trick question?” Still, I long to stay connected to that current of joy that flows unabated at the core of both “good” and “bad” times.

That said, though, I’m so glad you’re on the upswing, Kyna, and feel like life is going in the right direction again. I was so thrilled to read this a.m. about Chuck’s clean CT scan! Bless you both.

I almost think panic is the point when we completely shut off our connection to the Divine source, whatever we conceive that to be… but then, my definitions are still evolving. Hopefully I won’t have to do too much personal research on panic before I get it nailed down.

Your old Dad sounds brilliant.